"A horse is like a mirror, and it's reflecting what and who you are."

This is just a little diary of my horse life. I teach natural horsemanship and dressage. I am currently working on getting back to L4 Parelli after a car accident and surgery.

I suffered from a fear of failure, as things had not gone according to planned after my time off from my injuries. It had been an paralyzing disability (fear) but my healing is coming along nicely, and I hope to pass my level 4 before the end of 2011.

I don't know where I am going, but I am NOT lost!

I am now reviewing dvd's and books, and blogging my reviews. The link on the left in the categories (DVD Clinician Reviews)will take you straight to it. You will find links to the websites of all dvd clinicians I review and they are located on the left hand side bottom of page of the page. None of the clinicians or trainers I am reviewing, sponsor, endorse or authorize this site. For more info about them please click on thier link.

I hope you enjoy!

Savvy On,

I will be giving Savvy Star Ratings based soley on my opinion of it's value to a parelli student as such

***** Must own

**** Must watch

*** Worth watching, but you won't die without it

** Eh' take it with a grain of salt, you will have to filter alot

* OK, but there is better stuff out there to spend your time and money on

0 stars....skip it, it just isn't worth your time.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Am I missing vital puzzle pieces?

I said in an earlier post about god giving me the pieces to the puzzle so far apart, that I can't make the picture out or what the relationship is from one piece to the next.  I am somehow missing....the big picture here....pardon the pun.  I did a little high tech project here to explain how I feel right now.  Lets suppose I saw a picture, and I liked it so much, I bought it.  But it was a puzzle that I had to put together myself.  Here is the picture on the box. 

I get the box home, I open it and start puting it together.  All the pieces are falling into place, just as I was told they would.  But then one day I notice I have an incomplete picture, kinda like this.  I look everywhere, and the missing pieces are no where to be found.  I call the store and they tell me that all the pieces are there.  But I can't find them, so I start to think it is my fault, that I some how lost the pieces myself.  Not a big deal, since I am told the missing pieces are not vital, and I still have a very nice picture.  And when people look at my puzzle, this is what most of them see, a pretty nice picture.  It is almost complete,and most people don't even have half of thiers done.  I am doing pretty good, BUT if I want a new picture, I will have to have all my pieces in place.

Well, since I decide, I want to get that other picture, and they do not have the pieces to help me complete my picture, I muddle around, desperately making up the pieces myself.  I do a pretty good job of filling in, but lets face it, it is kind of obvious that while all the holes are filled, something is still missing.  I figure it is still ok, and I can get by with this.  I am still nearly done, and gratefull I have made it this far.  And a few people see my puzzle like this.  Pretty darn good.

But as time goes by, I start noticing, that my picture has no essence.  The story is not there and the picture doesn't make any sense, the meaning is just not there.
And the harder and closer I look, I see that the pieces that are missing are so vital, that with out them I cannot have the picture I dreamed of and that since I never had these  pieces all along, that maybe it was my imagination or that I was being naive in thinking that they were ever in the box to begin with, as I was told for so long.  And upon further examination, my picture really looks like this.  Most people do not see the picture like this.  They cannot see, what I can so easily feel.  They are still building thier puzzle, and havn't run out of pieces yet, so they don't even know they are missing.

So of I went on a quest for the missing pieces that I just can't get at my local store.  For some reason, they either have never seen my pieces, or they are holding them back for some unknown reason.  But that's ok.  I am finally at a place that I can say....that's ok.  I found a few stores that keep them in stock.  I may have to do some running around to get each and every piece, but at least I know they exist now.  They are not a fantasy, they were not my imagination as I stand here looking at the first piece in my hand, I know I have never seen anything like this before.  And guess what, I had one of the pieces myself all along, and lost it so long ago, that I couldn't even remember it.  But, I lifted up the couch, and found it right there, all along.  Now that I have expanded my horizons, God is throwing those pieces at me faster that I know what to do with them.  And the funny thing is......Finding these pieces is giving me a whole new picture to play with.  How long did it take you to notice the picture changed?


I know I am not perfect.....so be nice!