"A horse is like a mirror, and it's reflecting what and who you are."

This is just a little diary of my horse life. I teach natural horsemanship and dressage. I am currently working on getting back to L4 Parelli after a car accident and surgery.

I suffered from a fear of failure, as things had not gone according to planned after my time off from my injuries. It had been an paralyzing disability (fear) but my healing is coming along nicely, and I hope to pass my level 4 before the end of 2011.

I don't know where I am going, but I am NOT lost!

I am now reviewing dvd's and books, and blogging my reviews. The link on the left in the categories (DVD Clinician Reviews)will take you straight to it. You will find links to the websites of all dvd clinicians I review and they are located on the left hand side bottom of page of the page. None of the clinicians or trainers I am reviewing, sponsor, endorse or authorize this site. For more info about them please click on thier link.

I hope you enjoy!

Savvy On,

I will be giving Savvy Star Ratings based soley on my opinion of it's value to a parelli student as such

***** Must own

**** Must watch

*** Worth watching, but you won't die without it

** Eh' take it with a grain of salt, you will have to filter alot

* OK, but there is better stuff out there to spend your time and money on

0 stars....skip it, it just isn't worth your time.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Too hard to describe in 100 words or less! I dare you to try!

I just had to try to explain to opposing counsels lawyer what Parelli is, why it is important to me, and just what the implication is, that I lost my mo-jo.  So this car accident has robbed me of my dreams.....no surprise to anyone as I complain about it all the time.  But how to explain to the lawyer...who by the way was grilling me like Tom Cruise in "A Few Good Men"

She wanted to know what the big deal was that I can barely ride my horses, and will never be able to start a horse undersaddle again.  She asked if I can't complete Parelli levels, why would I keep doing it?  To all of you......it's a DUH! kinda answer that needs NO explaination.  But when you are under oath and having EVERY sound that comes out of your mouth legally recorded.....and.....um.....I was very emotional at the time, tears and alot of tissue, and I blurted (my only blurt of the whole 3 hrs session BTW) "Why does one pet thier dog?"  Non horse people just don't understand.  They don't get it.  I don't think anyone can ever describe to perfection the bond between a girl and her horse.  It transends words.  Beyond explaination.  Our husbands, and parents and kids don't get it.....how is the lawyer suppose to get it.

She told me not get defensive or something like that, and she needed to ask to understand why?  In my mind, all I could think of was "if I don't have horses I will go stark raving mad.  And without Parelli what is the point" 

I have no Idea at this point what I ended up saying, I answered at least 3000 questions, and was instructed to be brief.   BRIEF.....what the heck is THAT?  They may as well have asked me to answer in French!   THAT would have been easier.  I don't know how, but I said the words "yes" "no" and "correct" more in 3hrs than I have in the last year. 

I could have gone on for an hour about how this accident has stripped me of skills, timing, bond and sanity.  How it has created fear and doubt where it never existed before.  Risk.....can't live on that fine line anymore.  But I wasn't allowed.  Brief...be brief.  I think I even confused myself by the time I was done! 

Then she wanted to know why, if I have been doing Parelli for @9yrs, and I earlier stated under oath, that it should take 4-10yrs to complete the levels, depending on the aptitude of both the horse and rider, why had I not done so yet.  I felt so depressed instantly and cried like a fool.......thanks for bringing THAT up !@#$%^&*(.  Well let's see....horse changes, program changes,  and TWO HEAD ON COLLISIONS have set me back a bit.  But for the record, I was almost done when your client wrecklessly turned infront of me!

I was about to tell her to call Pat or Linda themselves......maybe they could explain it.

Enough for now, I am crying so hard, I can't even type anymore!


  1. Well! Just reading your post put what I thought was a stressful and frustrating attempt at explaining Parelli, COMPLETELY into perspective... Oh my gosh, BIG - BIG - BIG hugs to you of compassion and support! Thank you for subscribing to my blog by the way, you're my first and I truly appreciate it and the support you've given me... you're an amazing woman, hang in there! I'll stay connected, I want to know how this turns out for you.

  2. awww, thank you! Support is an amazing thing. I am so glad parelli added it to the list of needed tools.

    Your welcome and thank you too. I as well as you would like to know the out come. the accident was 2.5 yrs ago and it could honestly take another 2.5 yrs to get his resolved.

    She didn't understand if I could no longer become a PP why I would continue the program.

    Like I said...no brief answer will suffice, and I was too emotional to try. How do you put a price on losing your dream? A dream you have had since age2. How does one live without a dream? We have to have dreams. Do I still dream of becomeing a PP, YES....will I still try...yes.....will I succeed.....I honeslty don't want to answer that question.....as it literally breaks my spirit!

    How do you compensate some one for losing thier life? Nothing can compensate me for what I have lost.....NOTHING!

  3. Dear Michelle, I am sending lots of positive energy your way! It has hard for "Normals" to understand what Parelli is about. After all, it changes lifes in incredible ways as you and I know first hand, and how can you explain that to somebody who is not into horses the natural way? You have so much passion and dedication to the Parelli program as I can tell from your website and blog, you WILL achieve your dream! It might take a little longer than you thought, but you will!
    Only the best,

    Petra Christensen
    Parelli 1Star Junior Instructor

  4. Thank You Petra,
    Of course reading your words brings me to tears. But at least they are tears of friendship and camaraderie. Your the bomb....thanks!

  5. That's what Parelli is all about... We're a biiiig "family"! Have a super week, Michelle!


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