I win...I win....the cones are mine....ALL MINE!

Well, after that tragic display of the most hideous horsemanship ever, the battle of the cones is resolved again.  Hopefully it lasts this time...though I doubt it.  Rose is highly intelligent, and with my level on inadequacy right now, it will be easy for her to smell my weakness, when ever it crops  up.  Anyways, our next play session was thursday night.  She was an angel!  Boy she cantered around light as a feather.  It felt good.  I am getting a good handle of the 45' line too.  I have only used it a handful of times, and am quite impressed with how quickly it is becoming a part of me, like the 22' is.  Now I ain't getting crazy here, I did get my foot caught in a coil once.  Luckily I am in perfect control of my horse (wink sneer) that I was safe, and able to get my foot out unharmed!  We played with more zone 5 driving with one rein, and I think I may start up again with two reins, now that I am getting the feel of the 45'.  I so badly want to tape my Online L3, but I just don't know if we are ready.  I know it will be a long time before I am satisfied with the quality of my skills, but for the sake of the "fear makeover" I feel this strong push to do so.  More like a desire.  Again desire hasn't been my friend for a while.  And now that we are getting reacquainted, I don't know how to proceed.  I am in uncharted water here, as far as the fear is concerned.  I have been consumed with nothing but DESIRE since age 2.  It is a frightening feeling being without it.  It is strange and foreign, though I have become accustomed to it's sensations since my return after the accident.  For a long time, the desire was there, but since I couldnt' physically do ANYthing, I hadn't run into my nemesis.....FEAR.  Once I met her.....desire split like a rat from a snake house!  So I have been attempting snake removal....but it has been so hard.  Anyways.....blah blah blah....I have been so depressed and nostalgic this week.  I need to shake it!

Today is bath day again for Cha'Cote and who ever else I have the energy for.  It is hot out, so I plan to wait till later to play with the horses.

Savvy On
Michelle