Monday, August 31, 2009
I took my mother to see the movie Julie & Julia. I was inspired. I have decided to make my blog more official. Or something like that…more purposeful. I am going to count all the tasks in the self assessments and official auditions, see how many days seem feasible to accomplish this but no more than 1yr 1mo. That will be my birthday. I am turning 40 in just 30 short days. I have been depressed about it for years. Now that it is finally here, I am not sure how I feel about it anymore. I know that I was upset that I never realized most of my equestrian dreams. I never went to the Olympics, I was never Rookie of the year in grand prix show jumping, I never rode a grand prix dressage test at Buckingham Palace. I never competed in three day eventing. Heck, I don’t even have a shelter for my horses anymore or an arena to do all these tasks in. But I do know that I am Officially L1 in Parelli. It is kind of a joke now as it was really not a test of my skills for sure, but the real accomplishment was the fact that I did get off the couch and get back into my life after a year and a half off. I am a great horse person who still has a lot to learn, but I CAN pass L4 Parelli, I just need to put my mind to it. I think it would be a real inspirational thing to do, considering how I thought I would just die if I ever turned 40. Take the whole dreaded year and make it something greater than I ever thought it could be. So that is my plan, now I just need to do the math. ICK!