Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Sobbing tears of sadness.... =(
Well, I have been tending to Snookies wound for well over a week now. It is healing sooo slowly. After she ate her special old lady food, leg hosed and doctored, I started to groom her. Then I started to cry. It really hit me how bad she looks. She had taken this year very hard. She has lost alot of weight, and her 'pooper" is really sunk in. I laid my cheek on her forehead and cried for about 10min stroking her face and muzzle. I realized I will probably never ride her again....and that just makes me more mad about that damn car accident. She was still healthy and realtively fit for a senior, and due to my pain and depression, I wasn't able to keep her in a decent condition. And I never got to ride her again. I could just hit someone right now. She was such a lovely horse in her prime. Shiney like a new copper penny. Now just a dull orange. I am going to have to buy half the feed store suplements to see if it is even possible to get her back in good weight. The food she has been getting, isn't doing it. So I need more, probiotics, prebiotics, enzymes, vitamin/minerals, flax seed, rice bran, beet pulp, alfalfa pellets, and senior suplements. That will cost a small fortune! I think I need to find a way for my mom to be able to feed her mid day for me too. right now, all I can do, is an extra feeding when I get home after work. I toss a ton of hay in the am, her extra feed @ 6pm, then feed everyone around 10pm. to give her time to digest her treat. So, I will hit up the feed store tonight, and see how deep in the negative my check book can go!